perzephone: madness takes its toll. please have exact change. (exact change)
This isn't a typical urge for me, but over the past few weeks I've been wanting to trip balls. I don't know if it's a side-effect of the Zoloft or a side effect of feeling better, but damn, I want to get high so bad. I have no idea who I could score anything off of. I know my backyard neighbors are growing weed, but that's not what I want. I want mescaline, LSD, DMT, X, something that will make me see pretty colors.

I keep getting the urge to ask facebook if anyone knows where I can score some LSD, but I think that would be a Very Bad Idea. I'm feeling reckless and confident, but not that reckless. It's a fine line between reckless and retarded.

Josh eventually texted me back, and now he's worrying me because everything is hearts and roses w/him. He also gave me a classic and hilarious line: "If I was rich I would make all your dreams come true". I laughed so fucking hard over that. He's also told me I have perfect nipples, which was far more endearing than making dreams reality.

Well, if I was rich all my dreams would be true, motherfucker.

I'm liking the New & Improved Zoloft-Enriched Me. I'm fucking awesome.

perzephone: (better living through modern chemistry)
The dentist gave me 3 10mg Valium pills so I could stomach getting a couple of cavities filled tomorrow.

I took one this morning at 9:35am so I could see what it would do to me - I've never taken Valium before. Except once, when I was 3 & ate one my freat-aunt had left sitting on a side table. I thought it was a Pez. My parents told me I slept for 3 days straight & then proceeded to eat everything in the house.

34 years later, either it's not a high enough dose or I'm resistant to it. In fact, I feel a little more 'awake' if anything, but definitely not relaxed, nor do I have any enhanced sense of well-being. My husband's Xanax at 1mg gave me cotton mouth & nothing else, but I'm not even getting cotton mouth from 10x as much.

I should submit myself as a lab rat or something, because I'm becoming more & more resistant to more & more narcotic-type drugs, and it's not like I'm a junkie or anything. It's just weird.


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