The Relativity of Aging
May. 25th, 2009 08:57 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
perzephone
So here I am, almost halfway through 35.
I'm at an age where I should already be doing what I'm supposed to be doing for the rest of my life - not still trying to figure out what that is. I should be settled into a career, firm in my goals, confident, saving towards the eventuality of retirement.
Instead, I'm living in a house my in-laws own, living paycheck to paycheck, no direction, no goals, pretty much nothing.
I was listening to Seether while I ironed and it dawned on me that I relate far too well to almost every song on Finding Beauty in Negative Spaces. Personally, deeply and painfully relate. I thought to myself, "Gee, I can't be old. I can still relate to rock music... and not just the music I listened to as a teenager".
Right now, though, 50 is feeling a Hel of a lot closer than 20.
I'm at an age where I should already be doing what I'm supposed to be doing for the rest of my life - not still trying to figure out what that is. I should be settled into a career, firm in my goals, confident, saving towards the eventuality of retirement.
Instead, I'm living in a house my in-laws own, living paycheck to paycheck, no direction, no goals, pretty much nothing.
I was listening to Seether while I ironed and it dawned on me that I relate far too well to almost every song on Finding Beauty in Negative Spaces. Personally, deeply and painfully relate. I thought to myself, "Gee, I can't be old. I can still relate to rock music... and not just the music I listened to as a teenager".
Right now, though, 50 is feeling a Hel of a lot closer than 20.
