A Prayer

Great Mystery,

Please grant me an environment in which I can grow and change. Please grant me the time and desire for self-care. Please grant me a home environment that is a safe harbor for activity instead of passivity. Please grant me a work environment that is a safe harbor for growth and change, because so much of how I identify myself is based around what I do for a living. I cannot be who I want to be while working in a hotel/casino here in Las Vegas. I am all I'll ever be as long as I remain here. I want to be more than what I am now.

I want to want to make these changes within my world and within myself.
I want to heal, and I want to heal others as I heal myself.
I want to be compassionate.
I want to be open-hearted and kind-hearted.
I want to accept without judging.
I want to separate my identity from my job. I want my job to be 'just' a job, a uniform, something I can shed at the end of the day like so much polyester.
I want to grow plants.
I want to be able to meditate again without falling asleep.
I want to sleep AND dream without medication.
I want to teach.
I want a teacher, or a guide, or a sign. Something. Some signal that I am asking in the right direction.

Thank you, Great Mystery, for hearing my plea.

Namaste
Amen
Gassho
Much metta
Blessed Be

( Aw crap, I'm in for it... )

OMFG! Ratha's back!!!

I was invited via mass mail to be on an author's amazon.com 'Friends' list, which is not a big deal in & of itself - I think I'm on Stephen King's Friends list over there, too... but what is the big deal is that this particular author, Clare Bell, wrote the Ratha series (Ratha's Creature, Clan Ground, Ratha & Thistle-Chaser & Ratha's Challenge) and she's putting out a new book - Ratha's Courage, due out in July. It's her first Ratha story since 1994.

I am, of course, going to have to order all of the new bindings, plus the new book. I've got a mis-matched set right now, and it took me a long time to get all four books - without half & amazon, it would have been nigh-impossible considering how long they've been out of print.

It will probably make me uncomfortable but I have a secret hope that Ratha & Thakur hook up.

Clare Bell's Webpage

Ratha on myspace