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It's been two weeks since I dedicated myself to Selene, from new to a night past full.
I asked Her how I could better serve Her as priestess, and I did receive an answer: flow with it. I'm getting the idea that I am just supposed to watch Her for awhile, not do anything except pay attention. I am waxing poetic when I greet Her. Every night, (until the past couple of nights) when I leave the building from work, She rises over the parking garage across the street and stays on my side of the car almost the whole ride home. Then, as I'm going to bed, She's outside the Amityville window, which has been rechristened the 'half-moon window'.
I get a sense of patience and abidement from Her. As I mentioned to someone on the pagan forum, with the understanding that Selene is not a Goddess, but is instead one of the older Titans: I am finding out, just over the past week or so since I dedicated myself to Selene/Luna, that She is definitely not Artemis or Diana. For Her, the crescent of the Moon is the sweeping horns of milk-white water buffalo, not the bow. She has dogs, but they are more protective and less called to the hunt than Artemis' pack. Like a Goddess, She is at once ancient and timeless, but She has a longer memory. And somehow, Her love is kinder and gentler and not edged by quite the same disdainful cruelty that many of the younger Goddesses display.
I used to get a wild, energetic yearning with the full moon. Now it's a little different - but it could be the new hormone pills talking, too. I feel somehow softer, more open, more sensitive - which is not always a good thing, especially where I work. But the moon is also calming, centering and soothing.
So, as She abides, so will I. I know in time She'll have things for me to do, things for me to learn - and to remember. But for now, I'm just going to watch Her chariot leave its wake of stars every night.
I asked Her how I could better serve Her as priestess, and I did receive an answer: flow with it. I'm getting the idea that I am just supposed to watch Her for awhile, not do anything except pay attention. I am waxing poetic when I greet Her. Every night, (until the past couple of nights) when I leave the building from work, She rises over the parking garage across the street and stays on my side of the car almost the whole ride home. Then, as I'm going to bed, She's outside the Amityville window, which has been rechristened the 'half-moon window'.
I get a sense of patience and abidement from Her. As I mentioned to someone on the pagan forum, with the understanding that Selene is not a Goddess, but is instead one of the older Titans: I am finding out, just over the past week or so since I dedicated myself to Selene/Luna, that She is definitely not Artemis or Diana. For Her, the crescent of the Moon is the sweeping horns of milk-white water buffalo, not the bow. She has dogs, but they are more protective and less called to the hunt than Artemis' pack. Like a Goddess, She is at once ancient and timeless, but She has a longer memory. And somehow, Her love is kinder and gentler and not edged by quite the same disdainful cruelty that many of the younger Goddesses display.
I used to get a wild, energetic yearning with the full moon. Now it's a little different - but it could be the new hormone pills talking, too. I feel somehow softer, more open, more sensitive - which is not always a good thing, especially where I work. But the moon is also calming, centering and soothing.
So, as She abides, so will I. I know in time She'll have things for me to do, things for me to learn - and to remember. But for now, I'm just going to watch Her chariot leave its wake of stars every night.