Stupid Question

[perzephone]

Ok, I've been Pagan all my life. I've got patron deities, spirit guides, totems, ancestors (well, they may not be related to me, but I consider them my ancestors more than my actual ancestors)... but for the life of me, I have no clue about this particular situation.

I'm in the market for a new deity. I'm tired of serving and serving and not really getting much in return. I'm tired of getting my head run into brick walls. I'm tired of being kicked around. I'm tired of the school of spiritual hard knocks.

Back in June, I honestly started asking the Universe for compassion, comfort, nourishment, creative guidance and all I've gotten has been white noise.

So, what's the general consensus on consciously choosing a deity to worship? For instance, if I just decided to start worshiping and giving devotion to say, Brighid or Diana, is that acceptable?

Comments

[spyral-weaver73.livejournal.com]

The deities have been pretty silent in my old age too ;p
I only feel something deep when I do my artwork..maybe the whole..you need to be doing what you were meant to do or something by this time of your life..whatever the case..Ive not found a deity that sings to me yet..since I dont feel Im done changing yet..maybe you arent either..

[perzephone.livejournal.com]

It's not that the Gods have gone silent... if anything, I'm a little more connected now that I have been for a long time. It's just - I need to feel the love, hah. I don't feel the draw to deities like Kali or Sekhmet anymore. I'm tired of the back-breaking work. I don't mind being an empty vessel or a messenger or a servant, but I'd like to get something in return beyond a kick in the head.