Stupid Question

[perzephone]

Ok, I've been Pagan all my life. I've got patron deities, spirit guides, totems, ancestors (well, they may not be related to me, but I consider them my ancestors more than my actual ancestors)... but for the life of me, I have no clue about this particular situation.

I'm in the market for a new deity. I'm tired of serving and serving and not really getting much in return. I'm tired of getting my head run into brick walls. I'm tired of being kicked around. I'm tired of the school of spiritual hard knocks.

Back in June, I honestly started asking the Universe for compassion, comfort, nourishment, creative guidance and all I've gotten has been white noise.

So, what's the general consensus on consciously choosing a deity to worship? For instance, if I just decided to start worshiping and giving devotion to say, Brighid or Diana, is that acceptable?

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[moonvoice.livejournal.com]

So, what's the general consensus on consciously choosing a deity to worship? For instance, if I just decided to start worshiping and giving devotion to say, Brighid or Diana, is that acceptable?

If they accept it, I don't see why not. (which is what i also said in Pagan Forum, and yay, I was able to post something!)

I Am Everywhere

[perzephone.livejournal.com]

Heh, I am one of the top 10 offenders of teh interwebs - The Cross-Poster!

But thank you - I highly respect your opinions on all matters spiritual :D

[akiima.livejournal.com]

I am not sure how you feel about me commenting, and I hope nothing I say offends, but... well, here's my opinion, which you may disregard as you choose.

I believe that, in worship, you should be guided by those you feel the most connected to. As you grow older and time and life change you, what you were once suited to and connected well with would naturally alter as well.

Prayer should come from the deepest, most honest portion of who we are... if you are lying to yourself or to the deity you are communing with, even by simply not feeling they are the right one for you, then the feelings associated with their benevolence or wisdom would be degraded.

You should seek out a deity that feels *right* to you... what gives you the comfort and help you need in your darkest of hours? Who do you feel your soul is called to?

I hope that no deity you had picked in the past would ever wish you to continue prayers that were only darkening your path when they were unable to answer, for whatever reason, your much needed requests. And I am also faithful that any deity would be grateful for your heart seeking theirs.

Akiima/Sunflower

Tangled Webs

[perzephone.livejournal.com]

It's all very strange for me. I serve Persephone and Hades, and when I was little, They were very much like parents. But as I got older, the relationship dynamics changed and became more reserved, more of one where I was asked from time to time to do things (and I still am), and where I was expected to make offerings and perform devotions (and still am)... but They are not the kind and loving 'parents' I had when I was 5. Dionysus and Ariadne are Gods of my own personal madness, the kind found at the bottom of every bottle, the maenad, mad-woman.

Coyote has virtually abandoned me in my old age ;P I hear him occasionally, off in the desert, or the echo of it in my own voice, but he helped me through a time when I needed to learn how to chew my own leg off if I couldn't talk my way out of the trap - and I just don't need his help that much, and I'm not mischievous enough to keep him entertained.

I keep going over the same ground with the lwa, and I know a lot of my problem lays in that I cannot answer The Call. Most of the other deities that brush up against me are the head-knockers and ass-kickers. My biggest problem right now is that I've only ever looked for the harsher deities, spurning anything that smacked even vaguely of comfort, and those bad-ass Gods and Goddesses have always been willing to answer. I'm just getting too old for that kind of shit - my bones and back can't take it anymore.

[spyral-weaver73.livejournal.com]

The deities have been pretty silent in my old age too ;p
I only feel something deep when I do my artwork..maybe the whole..you need to be doing what you were meant to do or something by this time of your life..whatever the case..Ive not found a deity that sings to me yet..since I dont feel Im done changing yet..maybe you arent either..

[perzephone.livejournal.com]

It's not that the Gods have gone silent... if anything, I'm a little more connected now that I have been for a long time. It's just - I need to feel the love, hah. I don't feel the draw to deities like Kali or Sekhmet anymore. I'm tired of the back-breaking work. I don't mind being an empty vessel or a messenger or a servant, but I'd like to get something in return beyond a kick in the head.