Thank you moonvoice , for this link

thelemicgoldendawn.net/englishqabalah.htm

It has a Gematria calculator on it, woot!

According to Gematria, Janelle is 354 = Liber AL, Cipher, Island, Keph-Ra, Brass, Spear, Shiva, Dragon, Thebes, Chokmah, Hagios, Alkhemi, Aryan, Koran, BITOM

As to what that signifies... I've got to go to the grocery store, so I don't have time to investigate it further :P

My last name = 306:  Ta-Nech, Samael, Khamael, Iblis, Siva, Mars, Falcon, Aureae, Demon, Go On, Feast, Wine, Elite, Rome, Fates, Task, Forge, Guard, Ruach, Michael, Yajna, Bhakti..  Seems way cooler and eviller than my first name, lol.

It's amazing what a difference two white, granular substances can make when added to foods and beverages - salt and sugar. Had a bowl of Rice Krispies this morning & for probably the first time in my life, didn't put any sugar on it. Blegh. Even with the sliced banana, it was bland and flavorless. Had a vague toasted flavor, but other than that I could have been eating packing material. I could taste milk & banana, but that was pretty much it. The milk didn't taste like cereal milk should taste, either - it just tasted like milk. I'm not a huge fan of milk, either, but I've been trying to introduce a little extra calcium into my diet because of the impending surgery. I admit, I have never been a milk drinker, usually the only dairy I get is in my coffee. My mom didn't force it on me as a kid, either, because if I didn't want to drink it, I'd puke on purpose. Over the past year or so I haven't even been eating that much ice cream, mainly because my ulcer's been acting up & dairy makes it worse (contrary to popular belief, dairy does that to ulcers - lactic acid).

Way back when, after my car accident when my blood pressure first shot up, on the advice of various health professionals, I eliminated salt, caffeine and fat from my diet. For two years, no salt, no fat, no caffeine. It is possible to eat that way, but who wants to? My cholesterol (both good & bad) dropped to ridiculously low levels, causing its own array of deficiency-related problems, but my blood pressure was unaffected. I was a label-reader extraordinaire, and I could spot hidden sodium a mile away... and I lost weight, mainly because food became the most boring thing on the planet. I ate a lot of plain oatmeal. Not even Quaker Instant oats, because that had sodium added. I'm talking whole rolled oats that you have to cook for an hour. Plain toast, no butter or margarine. Plain white or brown rice. I don't know how some people can do it - they claim that whole foods, free of additives, taste wonderful all on their own... but honestly they don't. Salt adds this incredible new level to any food, even sweet ones. It makes the bland savory & the sweet deeper. That's really why I decided to let them put me on the blood pressure meds - salt, especially roasted in-the-shell salted sunflower seeds.

Food has become a favorite subject of mine lately. Nothing quite like comparing cereal box nutrition information & serving size or lining up 20 different boxes of granola bars in the grocery store & trying to decide if the South Beach diet ones are really all they're advertising themselves to be (actually, compared w/all the cereal bars, glorified candy bars & etc., they're not that bad) to give one an appreciation of being able to eat anything ya want.

On another note, I finally learned what '93' is about. I don't hear it much anymore, but it used to be a common occult greeting/blessing. The whole Blessed Be and 93 thing. For years, I've asked people, "What does '93' mean?" Most people get shifty-eyed & err & umm a lot, indicating that either they don't know or they don't want to tell me, like it's a great, big 3rd degree secret or something. Kind of like asking someone what Namaste means. I get different answers from everyone who says it that I've asked... I'd harbored suspicions that Namaste was a New-Age made up word, but it's finally been confirmed by several Buddhists for me who've given me the exact same answer - unlike '93'.

For those who don't know or only suspected - '93' is the numerological equivalent to 'love', at least in that Goetic/Crowley/Golden Dawn numerological system that I've never been able to learn.

Just a note to doomsayers: The world is not going to end in 2012. And if it does, what exactly are you going to do about it? Quit complaining & start coming up with solutions please. You've got what, 7 years? Get to it. A lot can happen in seven years - ask the last Year King.

Went out & bought the recumbent bike. Haven't set it up yet. It was on sale at Wal-Mart for $108.67, a third of what Sears wanted. Pretty cool, even if I do say so myself. It's 9:30am, I have no idea what I'm still doing up & awake & wanting tomato soup. Been having some ghostie activity here, which is odd because, ok, nevermind, Candlemas is like, a week or two away. Duh. February 2nd, now I understand.

Put in an online application w/the County, see how that turns out. Got to run by Eastridge on Monday or Tuesday & get a business card to submit w/the test certificate to the county - they want the testing body's address & phone number, rotten bastards. Of course, Eastridge's typing certificate lacked this pertinent information. Stupid.

(Edited for content 03/16/08 - I no longer have a second lj, so I deleted the link)

Hmmm, now that I've hit 30, can I have a mid-life crisis? I want to buy a cherry-red McLaran F1 & seduce Enrique Iglesias into being my pool boy. Of course, I don't have a pool, so I guess he can towel me off after my showers. Finding out that Enrique has some sort of cameo in "Once Upon a Time in Mexico" just makes me hunger to see that flick all that much more.
Rob keeps asking if he needs to start spreading newspaper all over the floor, & I keep telling him, "NO! The sexual peak is at 35, ya dork!"
So here we embark on the brave year 2004 - it comes out to a 6, numerologically speaking. Hold on to yer hats, ladies & gents, it's gonna be an emotionally-driven year, very little common sense will be exhibited. Things begun in since 2001 will be coming to an end, bearing fruit, yielding results, what have ye, but anything begun now will be on shaky foundations. Bad year to get married or start a business venture. Marriages & businesses that begin this year may very well not see the end of it & will probably go bye-bye by oh, 2008 or so. Children born of 2006 will be emotionally-geared kids, can't appeal to their sense of reason. They may have actual emotional disturbances or mental disabilities. People dealing w/depression, bi-polar tendencies, addictions, etc. are gonna have a hard time of it this year.
I wish everyone luck in all they do, we all need a little luck to make it through.