Doodle doodle dee

So much happening, but at the same time so little happening... almost done w/Alex's psych course - the professor says my term paper is fantastic, so that's a big relief. Apparently I do have diarrhea of the pen, at least when it comes to criminology. I can go on for 50 pages about profiling alone, not to mention the profilers & the profiled. Unorganized/organized, the BSU, the BEA, investigative psychology... holy cow but I've absorbed a lot of useless knowledge. I got pissed off too - the textbook claims that children w/behavioral disorders that lead them to seek attention have a greater likelihood of becoming sociopathic or antisocial as adults, which from the oh, 30 or so books & websites I just explored about criminal profiling, is blatantly mistaken. People like Ted Bundy & Jeffrey Dahmer (classic antisocial personalities) were almost OCD about not drawing attention to themselves as children. And OCD people do often times become serial killers - the horrible fantasy (obsession) can no longer be staved off by the repetitive and maladaptive action (compulsion) and they act out on their horrific fantasies. But instead of leaving their victims in degrading positions, they put their legs together, cover their breasteses & fold their clothing up neatly beside them...
A lot of things pissed me off in this book - "The Essentials of Psychology, 3rd Edition". But what are ya gonna do, stage a protest? I can't even really complain to the professor because I'm currently pretending to be someone else so they can pass a damn class. I scored a new printer/copier/fax/scanner out of it, so... I'll keep mah mouf shut fer now.
Sexual paraphilias piss me off - especially the concept that if you feel you were born in the wrong biological gender, you're nuts.
Learned about something kinda creepy - prodromal pruning. Apparently when people go from being pubescent mounds of walking hormones into adults, the brain cuts off some unnecessary circuitry in the process, making the adult brain run more efficiently than the child brain. However, in schizophrenia the brain gets a little too wild & crazy w/the pruning shears & takes some essential matter along w/the unnecessary stuff. So schizophrenics are missing some linkage in the synapses that make them more than a little nuts. It makes me a little paranoid about my own brain - how thorough was it? Was it too thorough? Is this part of why I lost my desire to be a drunken poet when I was 19? Is this why I became a mousy dependent haus-frau? And why did my brain decide to keep, of all things, the knowledge of how to shrink heads? I mean, I learned that when I was 15 so by all rights it should be gone now.
Of course, as a result of this particular course, I now have about 18 new disorders of my very own, aside from persistent head-shrinking knowledge.
Childen Haven never called me back, neener neener neener!