Movement

Rob spent most of today out w/his folks looking at trucks... I told him last night that I'd be more willing to move if we got a p/up truck or Ford Bronco/Jeep Cherokee/Chevy Blazer type vehicle, simply because we can tow a trailer behind it & it would probably come in handy in Washington. So out he went, into the heat & traffic w/his parents. They seem to have their heads set on a Jeep GRAND Cherokee at a used car dealer that's in the 5 - 6k range. We have $1500 to spend. I don't really want to end up owing them $4500 again. But I've also got a pretty good case of the fuckits. I honestly tried to care & found that I can't. Whatever we get, as long as it can tow something, is whatever we get. Fuck it.

Nothing will change unless I force it to. The hard part is mustering my energy to force change. I just don't have it inside me. I am a hollow drum. Keep beating me - at least I can do is make noise.