Yanno, since I took the 'Color Quiz' this morning, I've been bugged by it. It and the damned Mountain Lion card. I keep drawing the Mountain Lion, which is 'Leadership'.
Look, Universe, I don't want recognition. I don't want to be a leader. I am not a leader. I am a follower. Half the time, even when I'm following, I don't even know where the Hel I'm going... If I had been Moses, the Jews would still be lost in the desert, if I had been Hannibal, those elephants would have quite a herd somewhere in the Alps by now... I am content to work for other people, quietly and unassumingly. I prefer anonymity and mediocrity. I don't want to stand out, stand above or be noticed. Leave me the Hel alone!!!
And it's not that I'm sitting here on the surface going, "Oh, no, me? A leader? Never!" while plotting a government coup, either. It's an honest desire to stay in the middle of the crowd wearing neutral colors. It's not even a subconscious thing that I'm having an inner battle about - some part of me going, "Yes! I am truly a Leader!" while the rest of me is in denial about it. I mean, yeah, I am a Capricorn, but not all Capricorns are born to rule - some of us are just trying not to fall off the damn mountainside.
I don't think I've ever really wanted fame or recognition, or even infamy. All I want is money. Lots & lots of money - but not enough money to make the Forbes 500. Or even the Forbes 1000.
I am aspiring to be an accountant. That's pretty much it. $100k a year w/a nice pension or 401k... I'm aiming for a life w/a severance package.
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