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Anachronicity
Sep. 15th, 2007 10:48 pm
I have a numb spot on the sole of my left foot, and my left big toe is numb, too. Instead of thinking about diabetes, my mind wanders to more exotic climes - elephantiasis, leprosy. I get hot & cold chills, flu-like aches, reach a point in my sleep where I wake up because I'm super-heated and sweating - and think about malaria and t.b. instead of mold in the ventilation system or the onset of pre-menopause, or just it's that time in the process of sleep where the body stops acting like a heat sink and instead turns into a radiator. I don't believe in chronic fatigue or sick building syndrome... but I find myself worrying about cholera sometimes. Diseases that weren't around anymore (with the exception maybe of malaria, which is on an upswing - yeah, there's no such thing as global warming) when I was born.
I also started wondering if depression could be diagnosed with a simple blood test, much like cholesterol or diabetes? Can serotonin and dopamine and norepinephrine levels be measured and quantified? I've never gotten a diagnosis of depression or anxiety or schizotypal personality disorder... but so many of the physical things I've been feeling - tired all the time, muscles aches, joint pain, fatigue, back pain, insomnia - all those things that aren't anything that show up on any test but still feel wrong - can all be linked w/depression.
I know the numbness in my foot & toe are probably just from wearing crappy shoes and standing up all day after long periods of sitting around. Possibly there's some extra strain on my poor twisted spine & it's put pressure on my sciatica, which is sending funky signals to my left foot. I've also stopped my daily stretching routine, haven't been to the gym in a month, stopped paying attention to my diet... I'm just fucking tired all the time. It's much more convenient to do nothing.
There is some movie on SciFi having something to do w/a mutant creature of some kind & it instantly brought to mind the two flicks from the '70's that horrified me as an 8-year old or so: Prophecy: The Monster Movie & The Legend of Boggy Creek.
In other news, I got a mandoline. Not a jangly stringed instrument, but a fancy vegetable slicer. It is extremely sharp, and I don't know if I'll be able to use it safely ever again since it's tasted human blood. It may demand further sacrifices or start threatening to summon dark portals to Emeril's soundstage or something now. I don't know exactly where that small slice of me went, either - I was doing something stupid & trying to use it to slice a garlic clove. It was effective. Either Rob's a cannibal now or I am, but I'm not sure exactly what it could be considered if you're eating yourself. Is it more cannabalism or is it just recycling?
I also started wondering if depression could be diagnosed with a simple blood test, much like cholesterol or diabetes? Can serotonin and dopamine and norepinephrine levels be measured and quantified? I've never gotten a diagnosis of depression or anxiety or schizotypal personality disorder... but so many of the physical things I've been feeling - tired all the time, muscles aches, joint pain, fatigue, back pain, insomnia - all those things that aren't anything that show up on any test but still feel wrong - can all be linked w/depression.
I know the numbness in my foot & toe are probably just from wearing crappy shoes and standing up all day after long periods of sitting around. Possibly there's some extra strain on my poor twisted spine & it's put pressure on my sciatica, which is sending funky signals to my left foot. I've also stopped my daily stretching routine, haven't been to the gym in a month, stopped paying attention to my diet... I'm just fucking tired all the time. It's much more convenient to do nothing.
There is some movie on SciFi having something to do w/a mutant creature of some kind & it instantly brought to mind the two flicks from the '70's that horrified me as an 8-year old or so: Prophecy: The Monster Movie & The Legend of Boggy Creek.
In other news, I got a mandoline. Not a jangly stringed instrument, but a fancy vegetable slicer. It is extremely sharp, and I don't know if I'll be able to use it safely ever again since it's tasted human blood. It may demand further sacrifices or start threatening to summon dark portals to Emeril's soundstage or something now. I don't know exactly where that small slice of me went, either - I was doing something stupid & trying to use it to slice a garlic clove. It was effective. Either Rob's a cannibal now or I am, but I'm not sure exactly what it could be considered if you're eating yourself. Is it more cannabalism or is it just recycling?
