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Workaholics Anonymous
Feb. 19th, 2010 12:27 am
I think my ulcer is flaring up again. My tongue is sore, has swollen tastebuds and I've been acidy. Blegh. It's all work crap, too.
If I ask a simple question, I'm told to figure it out on my own.
But, whenever I make a judgment call, it's wrong.
If I try to go above and beyond what I'm asked to do, I'm wasting time.
If I do exactly as I'm asked, I'm not doing enough.
If something is over my head, I'm told to ask for assistance.
When I ask for assistance, I get no help.
I called one of the supervisors at the Excalibur today & asked if they were hiring steady extras. When she mentioned, "Oh, you've got perfect timing. W's wanting to get out of night audit whenever a full-time position opens up!", I didn't die inside a little or throw up in my mouth, or flinch or want to /wrists. Instead, I e-mailed one of the managers & asked, "Can I come home?"
This is from the WA website.
Twenty Questions: How Do I Know If I'm A Workaholic?
1. Do you get more excited about your work than about family or anything else?
I don't know if it's excitement, exactly, but it's definitely emotional.
2. Are there times when you can charge through your work and other times when you can't?
Yeah.
3. Do you take work with you to bed? On weekends? On vacation?
Yeah.
4. Is work the activity you like to do best and talk about most?
I don't exactly like to do it, but it is the only thing I have to talk about most of the time.
5. Do you work more than 40 hours a week?
Thankfully, no.
6. Do you turn your hobbies into money-making ventures?
Outside of WoW I have no real hobbies.
7. Do you take complete responsibility for the outcome of your work efforts?
Of course. This question makes no sense to me, though. Who else is responsible for my efforts other than me?
8. Have your family or friends given up expecting you on time?
Have they given up expecting me on time? No. Have they given up expecting me at all? Welllll...
9. Do you take on extra work because you are concerned that it won't otherwise get done?
It's not that I'm concerned it won't get done, it's that I know it won't get done.
10. Do you underestimate how long a project will take and then rush to complete it?
I'm just now having the opportunity to learn about project planning. Everything takes longer than I think it will.
11. Do you believe that it is okay to work long hours if you love what you are doing?
Yes
12. Do you get impatient with people who have other priorities besides work?
Yes. It's 2010, get off your asses & get back to work!
13. Are you afraid that if you don't work hard you will lose your job or be a failure?
More like I know I'll lose my job. Has nothing to do w/being a failure - I don't need a job to be myself.
14. Is the future a constant worry for you even when things are going very well?
No, not anymore.
15. Do you do things energetically and competitively including play?
Uh, no.
16. Do you get irritated when people ask you to stop doing your work in order to do something else?
Yes. Especially when it's their work.
17. Have your long hours hurt your family or other relationships?
In the past, yes.
18. Do you think about your work while driving, falling asleep or when others are talking?
I dream I'm at work.
19. Do you work or read during meals?
Not anymore. Slow food, baby, slow food.
20. Do you believe that more money will solve the other problems in your life?
I know money will solve a great deal of things in my life.
If you answer "yes" to three or more of these questions you may be a workaholic. Relax. You are not alone. Many have found recovery through the tools of this fellowship.
What I want to know is... How do you recover from being a workaholic? I mean, quitting cold turkey doesn't seem so viable. Where do these people hold their meetings? A freeway underpass? Out in front of Home Depot w/the day laborers? At the unemployment office? A cheap dive bar during happy hour? I mean, seriously. This isn't an addiction that can be solved by just not doing it anymore.
In other news, I tanked tonight & didn't die. I like not dying.
If I ask a simple question, I'm told to figure it out on my own.
But, whenever I make a judgment call, it's wrong.
If I try to go above and beyond what I'm asked to do, I'm wasting time.
If I do exactly as I'm asked, I'm not doing enough.
If something is over my head, I'm told to ask for assistance.
When I ask for assistance, I get no help.
I called one of the supervisors at the Excalibur today & asked if they were hiring steady extras. When she mentioned, "Oh, you've got perfect timing. W's wanting to get out of night audit whenever a full-time position opens up!", I didn't die inside a little or throw up in my mouth, or flinch or want to /wrists. Instead, I e-mailed one of the managers & asked, "Can I come home?"
This is from the WA website.
Twenty Questions: How Do I Know If I'm A Workaholic?
1. Do you get more excited about your work than about family or anything else?
I don't know if it's excitement, exactly, but it's definitely emotional.
2. Are there times when you can charge through your work and other times when you can't?
Yeah.
3. Do you take work with you to bed? On weekends? On vacation?
Yeah.
4. Is work the activity you like to do best and talk about most?
I don't exactly like to do it, but it is the only thing I have to talk about most of the time.
5. Do you work more than 40 hours a week?
Thankfully, no.
6. Do you turn your hobbies into money-making ventures?
Outside of WoW I have no real hobbies.
7. Do you take complete responsibility for the outcome of your work efforts?
Of course. This question makes no sense to me, though. Who else is responsible for my efforts other than me?
8. Have your family or friends given up expecting you on time?
Have they given up expecting me on time? No. Have they given up expecting me at all? Welllll...
9. Do you take on extra work because you are concerned that it won't otherwise get done?
It's not that I'm concerned it won't get done, it's that I know it won't get done.
10. Do you underestimate how long a project will take and then rush to complete it?
I'm just now having the opportunity to learn about project planning. Everything takes longer than I think it will.
11. Do you believe that it is okay to work long hours if you love what you are doing?
Yes
12. Do you get impatient with people who have other priorities besides work?
Yes. It's 2010, get off your asses & get back to work!
13. Are you afraid that if you don't work hard you will lose your job or be a failure?
More like I know I'll lose my job. Has nothing to do w/being a failure - I don't need a job to be myself.
14. Is the future a constant worry for you even when things are going very well?
No, not anymore.
15. Do you do things energetically and competitively including play?
Uh, no.
16. Do you get irritated when people ask you to stop doing your work in order to do something else?
Yes. Especially when it's their work.
17. Have your long hours hurt your family or other relationships?
In the past, yes.
18. Do you think about your work while driving, falling asleep or when others are talking?
I dream I'm at work.
19. Do you work or read during meals?
Not anymore. Slow food, baby, slow food.
20. Do you believe that more money will solve the other problems in your life?
I know money will solve a great deal of things in my life.
If you answer "yes" to three or more of these questions you may be a workaholic. Relax. You are not alone. Many have found recovery through the tools of this fellowship.
What I want to know is... How do you recover from being a workaholic? I mean, quitting cold turkey doesn't seem so viable. Where do these people hold their meetings? A freeway underpass? Out in front of Home Depot w/the day laborers? At the unemployment office? A cheap dive bar during happy hour? I mean, seriously. This isn't an addiction that can be solved by just not doing it anymore.
In other news, I tanked tonight & didn't die. I like not dying.
