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Just a Quickie
Jan. 8th, 2011 06:22 am
Next year, when I take my Elavil break, I'm not going to attempt it between Hallowe'en and Rob's birthday. It means I may be taking a mini-break sometime around June. I have sleep trouble after the time changes anyway, so why the hell not at a convenient time of year?
After the holidays and working all those days in a row, with no sleep, by January 5th I felt like I was coming off of an alcohol binge. A serious alcohol binge. I started getting cold & hot flashes, I was shaking, the walls were crawling, my skin was crawling. I came home that morning & took two Elavils (which will knock me out if nothing else after one of my breaks) and slept about 14 hours. Dreamt about Josh, which was weird, but I dreamed. Of course, waking up & for the rest of the night I felt like someone had slipped me a roofie or something.
I forget about Elavil's antidepressant effects until my yearly sabbatical. All the lights in the house were much brighter, my PC screens at home & work were killing my eyes, felt like I was getting fluorescent radiation burns on my face from the overhead lights, couldn't stand the sensation of the printer paper on my fingers. Good stuff. At least w/the Elavil it calms down - when I tried Paxil it didn't. I didn't get that much of the sensory crap from the Lexapro, either.
I'm feeling a little more human again, more attached to myself. Can't say if that's a good thing or not, but I fucking needed the sleep.
After the holidays and working all those days in a row, with no sleep, by January 5th I felt like I was coming off of an alcohol binge. A serious alcohol binge. I started getting cold & hot flashes, I was shaking, the walls were crawling, my skin was crawling. I came home that morning & took two Elavils (which will knock me out if nothing else after one of my breaks) and slept about 14 hours. Dreamt about Josh, which was weird, but I dreamed. Of course, waking up & for the rest of the night I felt like someone had slipped me a roofie or something.
I forget about Elavil's antidepressant effects until my yearly sabbatical. All the lights in the house were much brighter, my PC screens at home & work were killing my eyes, felt like I was getting fluorescent radiation burns on my face from the overhead lights, couldn't stand the sensation of the printer paper on my fingers. Good stuff. At least w/the Elavil it calms down - when I tried Paxil it didn't. I didn't get that much of the sensory crap from the Lexapro, either.
I'm feeling a little more human again, more attached to myself. Can't say if that's a good thing or not, but I fucking needed the sleep.
