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perzephone
'I woke last night to the sound of thunder...'
No rain, tho. It's a bit early yet for monsoon season. Layed in my bed watching the flash of lightning through the Amityville window over my head, listened to things shake with each progressive roll of thunder. That's one thing I do miss everytime I leave Vegas. The thunderstorms.
There was a lot of movement in the house yesterday & last night anyway - it was the Solstice.
I feel uggy right now. Have to go see Mattimoe again this morning, let him know how bad the Paxil beat me up & I'm going to talk to him about therapy, see what he recommends. Rob is so against it, but I don't think he understands what I've been going through these past six months or so. My emotions sort of just get categorized as 'I'm never happy.' The fact that I've always been this way has been ignored and pushed under myriad rugs, put off, put down, put away. I know when I was a teenager, even back to when I was a kid, I always just thought I was a little insane, and dealt with it that way. I even think of it as 'back when I was crazy', and not as in 'some wild & crazy kid' but that I was actually nuts and am simply feeling much better now, mwuhahahah.
No rain, tho. It's a bit early yet for monsoon season. Layed in my bed watching the flash of lightning through the Amityville window over my head, listened to things shake with each progressive roll of thunder. That's one thing I do miss everytime I leave Vegas. The thunderstorms.
There was a lot of movement in the house yesterday & last night anyway - it was the Solstice.
I feel uggy right now. Have to go see Mattimoe again this morning, let him know how bad the Paxil beat me up & I'm going to talk to him about therapy, see what he recommends. Rob is so against it, but I don't think he understands what I've been going through these past six months or so. My emotions sort of just get categorized as 'I'm never happy.' The fact that I've always been this way has been ignored and pushed under myriad rugs, put off, put down, put away. I know when I was a teenager, even back to when I was a kid, I always just thought I was a little insane, and dealt with it that way. I even think of it as 'back when I was crazy', and not as in 'some wild & crazy kid' but that I was actually nuts and am simply feeling much better now, mwuhahahah.
