Mental Health

Last night at work. Didn't want to be there. I felt like I was ready to just leap out of my own skin. The texture of the paper on my hands, the texture of my pants on my legs, it was hot & stuffy in my office w/no relief from engineering or a/c. Everything seemed to take three times longer than it should have, worked through my break & was stuck there an extra hour this morning. That crawly-skin feeling that just would not go away.

Sometimes I really wish I could just be taken care of, that I was one of those ultra-dependent & needy people that everyone coddles & never expects anything from. I seriously considered checking myself into Nevada Mental Health this morning just so I could relax. Let someone tell me my schedule for a few days, provide me w/food & drugs & bedding and a gown, maybe spend some time in ye old love-myself jacket in a rubber room where I could bang my head against a padded surface. I am in need of a release of something, but what? What exactly is it that I need to let go of?

I've determined that the alcohol gods are punishing me for my neglect and there is a tequila elemental calling my name, so tonight when Rob goes for food I'm going w/him & stopping by Lee's Discount Liquor. I'm then going to proceed to get very drunk and play WoW. Hopefully, my character will end up somewhere unfamiliar, naked & broke, kind of like what I'd like to do in real life.

Cruel Intentions

I wish this meme had a cut 'n paste sourcecode...

Your Goth Name

Janelle Feldes = Cruel Intentions

Perzephone came out as Latex Freak. I kind of like Cruel Intentions better. Rob's came out as 'Disturbed Angel', heh.