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Do you ever feel like the Universe is conspiring with you?
I mean, my plan actually worked & Coyote hasn't laughed yet.
Starting with the decision to take the path of least resistance for once & get a degree in the IT field... then I dropped to part time, giving me time to look for other jobs and work on my school. It's also given me time to sort of wean myself from my dependence on the night audit position and a steady income (yeah, it's been kind of rough since November)... It's easy to get comfortable somewhere and then never make changes because, well, it's comfy. I know everybody, everybody knows me. My cube was a safe haven.
And then I get a full-time job with the County (it's only taken me 7 years - about the same amount of time I've been working for the Excalibur (huh, imagine my surprise). And not only is it a job w/the County, it's in the IT department.
Last night I got Vesta from the Goddess Oracle & Frog from the Medicine Wheel. Frog's popped up recently (thanks, Moonvoice :D ), and in the Medicine Wheel Frog is feminine and linked strongly with the rain, cleansing and renewal. Basically, Frog tells me I've cleaned house a little and now it's time for me to get some refreshment and a new start of the soul. Vesta tells me "there have been healthy changes in your household". Basically, the answer to "Why is the Universe conspiring with me?" is "Because it's time".
It's kind of nerve-wracking though. I'm not used to this and I keep waiting to hear Coyote off in the distance.
In other news, I've been working on my chakras a little. When we first go to bed, Rob usually lays down with me & then he gets up & goes to his own bed. I've been laying there next to him & trying to channel energy to give to him. I can't ever start at the base of my spine because I can't break the barrier caused by the kinked vertebrae, so I've had to start with the top of my head. Which opens my brain to all sorts of hypnagogic imagery, but that's ok. I let it flow to my throat & then to my heart. I try to visualize my chakras working like some sort of water wheel of golden light - it fills the crown lotus, which pours into my throat lotus which in turn pours into my heart lotus & then I try to send all that golden flowing healing energy to Rob, wrapping him into a little golden cocoon of safety and health. And then I never get any farther because I fall asleep.
Tomorrow is my first day at the County - wish me luck!
I mean, my plan actually worked & Coyote hasn't laughed yet.
Starting with the decision to take the path of least resistance for once & get a degree in the IT field... then I dropped to part time, giving me time to look for other jobs and work on my school. It's also given me time to sort of wean myself from my dependence on the night audit position and a steady income (yeah, it's been kind of rough since November)... It's easy to get comfortable somewhere and then never make changes because, well, it's comfy. I know everybody, everybody knows me. My cube was a safe haven.
And then I get a full-time job with the County (it's only taken me 7 years - about the same amount of time I've been working for the Excalibur (huh, imagine my surprise). And not only is it a job w/the County, it's in the IT department.
Last night I got Vesta from the Goddess Oracle & Frog from the Medicine Wheel. Frog's popped up recently (thanks, Moonvoice :D ), and in the Medicine Wheel Frog is feminine and linked strongly with the rain, cleansing and renewal. Basically, Frog tells me I've cleaned house a little and now it's time for me to get some refreshment and a new start of the soul. Vesta tells me "there have been healthy changes in your household". Basically, the answer to "Why is the Universe conspiring with me?" is "Because it's time".
It's kind of nerve-wracking though. I'm not used to this and I keep waiting to hear Coyote off in the distance.
In other news, I've been working on my chakras a little. When we first go to bed, Rob usually lays down with me & then he gets up & goes to his own bed. I've been laying there next to him & trying to channel energy to give to him. I can't ever start at the base of my spine because I can't break the barrier caused by the kinked vertebrae, so I've had to start with the top of my head. Which opens my brain to all sorts of hypnagogic imagery, but that's ok. I let it flow to my throat & then to my heart. I try to visualize my chakras working like some sort of water wheel of golden light - it fills the crown lotus, which pours into my throat lotus which in turn pours into my heart lotus & then I try to send all that golden flowing healing energy to Rob, wrapping him into a little golden cocoon of safety and health. And then I never get any farther because I fall asleep.
Tomorrow is my first day at the County - wish me luck!
