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It's become strangely apparent to me that Seal is singing to me for a reason. It's deeper than just the eternal balancing act of mundane vs. spiritual, earth and water muddying up my mind...
For the past few weeks I fall asleep hearing the ocean, I smell it on the wind, I feel it in the air. The waters of the West are calling to me, and I ache deep inside for it. For all my yearning and longing, I can't make Seal come to me and give me answers. I cannot sit passively and call out to it, expecting it to come swimming up to me like an obediant sea-dog. If I want to find out what Seal has to tell me, or why it's come into my life like a tidal wave, I have to go swimming. It's completely up to me to reclaim my skin and catch the Seal. I know where the skin is, I just have to find the key or break open the doors with the strength of my heart and let the flood loose.
I want, more than anything, to live a life of the spirit as well as of the mundane. Like Seal, I believe I can stand with one foot in the sea and one firmly on the shore, grounded and centered in both elements. I want to find work that is meaningful, uplifting and purposeful, and I want to live a life in the spiritual world that is also meaningful, uplifting and purposeful. I know other people have done it, I just have to actively find a way to do it for myself. I know I need to bring music back into my life, and I know that in order for me to be able to get much further, I need to get out of this desert and go home.
I believe I do have things I can teach, and I believe I may have to lay claim to my knowledge instead of constantly negating it. I have been on my path for quite some time, and the lessons I've learned are mine - I have not stolen them, they are not illegitimate and the lack of lineage does not render them invalid. I have earned them and they are rightful and true. I can tell the passage of time and I know the seasons passing and I can follow the tides and I can smell a bear on the ice above me - and I am the Bear and I can smell the Seal below me.
Thank you, Coyote, for bringing me to this place. You have been a good guide, no matter what anyone says about you.
( Deeper Well )
For the past few weeks I fall asleep hearing the ocean, I smell it on the wind, I feel it in the air. The waters of the West are calling to me, and I ache deep inside for it. For all my yearning and longing, I can't make Seal come to me and give me answers. I cannot sit passively and call out to it, expecting it to come swimming up to me like an obediant sea-dog. If I want to find out what Seal has to tell me, or why it's come into my life like a tidal wave, I have to go swimming. It's completely up to me to reclaim my skin and catch the Seal. I know where the skin is, I just have to find the key or break open the doors with the strength of my heart and let the flood loose.
I want, more than anything, to live a life of the spirit as well as of the mundane. Like Seal, I believe I can stand with one foot in the sea and one firmly on the shore, grounded and centered in both elements. I want to find work that is meaningful, uplifting and purposeful, and I want to live a life in the spiritual world that is also meaningful, uplifting and purposeful. I know other people have done it, I just have to actively find a way to do it for myself. I know I need to bring music back into my life, and I know that in order for me to be able to get much further, I need to get out of this desert and go home.
I believe I do have things I can teach, and I believe I may have to lay claim to my knowledge instead of constantly negating it. I have been on my path for quite some time, and the lessons I've learned are mine - I have not stolen them, they are not illegitimate and the lack of lineage does not render them invalid. I have earned them and they are rightful and true. I can tell the passage of time and I know the seasons passing and I can follow the tides and I can smell a bear on the ice above me - and I am the Bear and I can smell the Seal below me.
Thank you, Coyote, for bringing me to this place. You have been a good guide, no matter what anyone says about you.
( Deeper Well )
