Writer's Block: There Can Be Only One

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Uh, no. We're primates. In general, primates are not monogamous, especially the primates to which we're most closely related. I think, as a species, we're a little hard on ourselves, putting all these social and moral restrictions on our own behaviour.

Love

I came to a weird realization last night. I speak of things in the past tense a lot. I loved Elton, I loved Eric, I loved Ken... and Chris... and Robbie... and JT and Don and DJ and Diane and Viv...

Truth be told, I still love them. In the present tense. I was sitting here & I almost heard an audible 'click' when I thought about that, & it felt like my ribcage got bigger or something and I had more room to breathe. I took that feeling to bed, and while I was laying there enjoying the new-found room in my chest, I saw a bear digging on the seashore and it unearthed something that was glowing brightly green & I went, "Ooh, it's a lotus". And then the meditation image of the lotus flower filled with sparkling blue water came into my head, complete with the swan swimming in it, overflowing into my third eye & throat chakras, and this time that water actually made it into my heart-lotus. The last sensation I had before drifting off to sleep was being filled with cool sea green light.

I slept fantastically last night & still feel pretty darned good.

I Think It's a Sign

This egg's code is 'lton'.



I think I have to keep it.

Not Used to This

Weird butterfly feeling somewhat south of my stomach. Been a long time since I've felt it, and I'm sober, heh.

Yes, I'm a goose & filled with silly fantasies that will never come true because I'm a fat old woman & he and I are lifetimes apart.

But hey, I've already lost a couple of pounds.