Nervous

I did the bad thing this afternoon (actually, it was around noon) & drank a large caffeinated coffee. I feel far more chipper than I have since March, but now my chest hurts & I'm jittery. Common sense is telling me that coffee was out of my system by about 6pm, but...

I've been thinking about the Thing From the Bottom of the Ocean. Now I'm afraid that when I go to sleep, I'm going to have The Dream again, where I'm in the empty theater & the curtains open to reveal a huge glass window, like in an enormous aquarium. On the other side of the glass are cliffs, immense black cliffs, with water pouring off them. And the water behind the glass begins to rise and I get that sense of something rising with the water, at great speed. I get the feeling that it eats whales for breakfast, and that it's very old and barnacle-and coral-encrusted.

It's got my back up.