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No Big Secret
Oct. 6th, 2010 04:52 am
Sometimes I think about sending in a postcard to PostSecret, but I don't have any big secrets.
The only thing I think about lately, especially when I read the suicide secrets, is that I don't have to kill myself.
I'm already dead.
The only thing is, can I live the rest of my life like this? Just, you know, dead?
I don't even make as much impact as a corpse does. People tend to notice corpses. There's usually some kind of uproar surrounding a body. Whether the person died a violent death or a natural one, if there's a dead body laying in the middle of the room, people pay attention to it. Even if the body is hidden, there is the odor, and flies, at least for a little while. I'm not saying that I want to smell bad and have a trail of flies following me around, but it seems pathetic that I'd need to rot to make an impression.
The only thing I think about lately, especially when I read the suicide secrets, is that I don't have to kill myself.
I'm already dead.
The only thing is, can I live the rest of my life like this? Just, you know, dead?
I don't even make as much impact as a corpse does. People tend to notice corpses. There's usually some kind of uproar surrounding a body. Whether the person died a violent death or a natural one, if there's a dead body laying in the middle of the room, people pay attention to it. Even if the body is hidden, there is the odor, and flies, at least for a little while. I'm not saying that I want to smell bad and have a trail of flies following me around, but it seems pathetic that I'd need to rot to make an impression.
