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The Bear Couldn't Swim
May. 18th, 2011 01:41 pm
I've been using some Delta wave sleep CDs lately, and I have been dreaming. Weird, bizarre, fully articulated dreams, no less.
One at least had some context. Rob's doc is sending him for prostate cancer screening, & the discussion prompted him to tell me if he does show markers for it, he's getting it removed. I feel the same way about breast cancer. Fuck chemo & radiation, just cut them puppies off. They're purely decorative for me, anyway, and if I want big tits back I can get cosmetic surgery. The next day I dreamed I was the recipient of numerous surgeries - kidney, hysterectomy, mastectomy, Lister corn removal... and I still tried to go into work. That's probably the closest thing I've had to a nightmare, but it wasn't scary, just painful and uncomfortable & I was wondering why I was so stupid as to ask for four surgeries at the same time.
The other day I dreamed something about riding a horse to a levee, taking a message to someone. I jumped on the horse's back, & I was wearing a long full skirt, which I actually had to adjust to pull out from under my leg to get better seating. The colors in that dream were vibrant - bay horse, blue skirt, the gunmetal gray Louisiana sky, the cool humidity giving everything a luminous quality.
Earlier this morning, I laid down for a nap prior to going to therapy. I turned on my sleep CD just because. It was a mistake in hindsight because I do notice that it takes me a bit longer to fully wake up, and I'm groggy when I wake up too early when I use the CDs. But in the span of about 2 hours, I dreamed. Something about a bear living on a tiny island, somehow guarding a house on the island. I was visiting someone on the island, in the house - the person kind of reminded me of Fujimoto from Ponyo. It was a Very Big Bear. I could talk to the bear but the bear only responded in one or two-word sentences. For some reason the bear wanted to come with me when I left the island, but the bear had a time limit to return to the island.
Somehow I & the bear ended up at a water park. The bear wanted to go on all the slides but because of its sheer size, it kept breaking things. On the return to the island, we ran into difficulties because it was a Very Big Bear who couldn't swim. The only way to get back to the island was a small ferry, and the ferryman didn't want to take the bear on board because he was afraid the bear would end up swamping the boat. I couldn't rent a different boat because I was almost broke. I couldn't teach the bear to swim because for one, the water was very cold and choppy, and for two - the bear wouldn't even get its feet wet. It just stood on the beach shaking its head.
Strange stuff, but it's nice to dream.
In other news, I've been working on a new embroidery pattern in my head - I just need to spend some time putting it on paper. For now, though, I'm going back to bed since I have to work tonight :P
One at least had some context. Rob's doc is sending him for prostate cancer screening, & the discussion prompted him to tell me if he does show markers for it, he's getting it removed. I feel the same way about breast cancer. Fuck chemo & radiation, just cut them puppies off. They're purely decorative for me, anyway, and if I want big tits back I can get cosmetic surgery. The next day I dreamed I was the recipient of numerous surgeries - kidney, hysterectomy, mastectomy, Lister corn removal... and I still tried to go into work. That's probably the closest thing I've had to a nightmare, but it wasn't scary, just painful and uncomfortable & I was wondering why I was so stupid as to ask for four surgeries at the same time.
The other day I dreamed something about riding a horse to a levee, taking a message to someone. I jumped on the horse's back, & I was wearing a long full skirt, which I actually had to adjust to pull out from under my leg to get better seating. The colors in that dream were vibrant - bay horse, blue skirt, the gunmetal gray Louisiana sky, the cool humidity giving everything a luminous quality.
Earlier this morning, I laid down for a nap prior to going to therapy. I turned on my sleep CD just because. It was a mistake in hindsight because I do notice that it takes me a bit longer to fully wake up, and I'm groggy when I wake up too early when I use the CDs. But in the span of about 2 hours, I dreamed. Something about a bear living on a tiny island, somehow guarding a house on the island. I was visiting someone on the island, in the house - the person kind of reminded me of Fujimoto from Ponyo. It was a Very Big Bear. I could talk to the bear but the bear only responded in one or two-word sentences. For some reason the bear wanted to come with me when I left the island, but the bear had a time limit to return to the island.
Somehow I & the bear ended up at a water park. The bear wanted to go on all the slides but because of its sheer size, it kept breaking things. On the return to the island, we ran into difficulties because it was a Very Big Bear who couldn't swim. The only way to get back to the island was a small ferry, and the ferryman didn't want to take the bear on board because he was afraid the bear would end up swamping the boat. I couldn't rent a different boat because I was almost broke. I couldn't teach the bear to swim because for one, the water was very cold and choppy, and for two - the bear wouldn't even get its feet wet. It just stood on the beach shaking its head.
Strange stuff, but it's nice to dream.
In other news, I've been working on a new embroidery pattern in my head - I just need to spend some time putting it on paper. For now, though, I'm going back to bed since I have to work tonight :P
