Sounds of Nature

[perzephone]

Yesterday, Rob & I only got about 4 hours of sleep due to a follow-up w/my ortho doc. So we went to bed while it was still dark outside. Around midnight. It's obscenely early for us but I was pulling a Grandpa Simpson routine at my computer. Not good, considering we were running the Scarlet Monastery. At least Rob got his Ravager axe on the first try. Anyway, I had bought a couple of 'sounds of nature' CD's to see if they would help me relax (along w/a Theta-wave stimulator, haven't tried it yet but I just got up. It's 8am, fuck me tomorrow). I had popped one in my CD player & was soothed to sleep (not that I needed the help last night) by the sounds of a babbling brook & birds & at some point a chorus of frogs & crickets.

About half an hour, forty-five minutes or so into the CD, while I & Rob were soundly, deeply asleep - the wolves started howling. Scared the living crap outta me at first. It was a loooooong, wavering, true were-wolf movie wolf howl, followed by the shorter yaps and songs of a family pack. Even woke Rob up & I told him, stating the obvious, "There are wolves in here. Maybe they'll eat the cucuy". He agreed with me & we both fell back asleep.

I drew a card last night, asked the Goddess Oracle 'how do I retrieve my faith?'. I drew Maeve, honoring your rhythms and cycles. The card assured me my depression and lack of interest in everything would pass. What I inferred from this is that maybe like a period, my faith has cycles, too. Times when I am a religious freak & times when I am an atheist. For once, decent advice from a tarot card. However, there is no time frame to work with. Could be a season, could be years.

Comments

[moonvoice.livejournal.com]

It's kinda great (synchronous even) that you first draw a card which reminds you that you're on the right track as long as you have faith that cycles are just that - cycles - and then during the night you hear wolves howling.

That's not the Goddess Oracle by Marashinsky is it? If so it's a beautiful deck with one of the most user-friendly depictions of Baba Yaga ever (still love it though.)

Goddess Oracle deck

[perzephone.livejournal.com]

I'm probably going to have to get the Marashinsky/Hrana Janto Goddess deck, especially now that I've seen it on Aeclectic. Hrana Janto did a few of the Llewellyn calendars, too, but I like Lisa Iris better - especially her painting of Hecate.

This is the deck that I've got, it's called the 'Goddess Guidance Oracle' - it's got artwork by four or five different artists, but the book is by Doreen Virtue.
Hey, look, it's Maeve! (http://www.aeclectic.net/tarot/cards/goddess-guidance/)

It was kind of funny last night when the CD started playing wolf howls - my first reaction was that of a prey animal - startled me right out of a dead sleep. The volume wasn't even up that loud!