The Tequila Memoirs
Jun. 21st, 2007 02:16 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
perzephone
2 shots of tequila & I can still spell 'memoirs'.
Don't tell me that you love me, ayiiii
Just tell me that you want me, ayiii
- Tusk, Fleetwood Mac
Edit: Ok, so a few shots later... er, not much later. It's 2:41, I don't know when I first posted this. I'm kind of drunk. Dude, there's a lot of tequila missing. It's okay, I can still mostly type. Gods help me, I think I actually might just love my husband. Not like that mad, romantic kind of love, but a deep, true love. It feels like innocence. The tequila started tasting good. I made a mistake the last time I bought it - I got Jose Cuervo Black Medallion, which is a darker tequila. I had to park my fat Druid bear-ass in Faol's rest because I get inspired when I'm drunk. I wish I could write when I'm sober. I wish I could tell the truth when I'm sober.
I lie all the time, you know. It's the coyote in me. It takes a lot of booze for the truth to come out. My fingers are numb. I love you all so much. Lisa, Akiima, Moonvoice. It hurts me so deeply that you are all hurting. I wish I could reach out with bits and pieces of my soul and fill in the parts you need most.
I want to tell all three of you that you are the strongest women I know.
What could be more pathetic than an old, fat, drunk woman sitting here listening to music & playing WoW & weeping?
(Damn, Rob cut me off.)
Don't tell me that you love me, ayiiii
Just tell me that you want me, ayiii
- Tusk, Fleetwood Mac
Edit: Ok, so a few shots later... er, not much later. It's 2:41, I don't know when I first posted this. I'm kind of drunk. Dude, there's a lot of tequila missing. It's okay, I can still mostly type. Gods help me, I think I actually might just love my husband. Not like that mad, romantic kind of love, but a deep, true love. It feels like innocence. The tequila started tasting good. I made a mistake the last time I bought it - I got Jose Cuervo Black Medallion, which is a darker tequila. I had to park my fat Druid bear-ass in Faol's rest because I get inspired when I'm drunk. I wish I could write when I'm sober. I wish I could tell the truth when I'm sober.
I lie all the time, you know. It's the coyote in me. It takes a lot of booze for the truth to come out. My fingers are numb. I love you all so much. Lisa, Akiima, Moonvoice. It hurts me so deeply that you are all hurting. I wish I could reach out with bits and pieces of my soul and fill in the parts you need most.
I want to tell all three of you that you are the strongest women I know.
What could be more pathetic than an old, fat, drunk woman sitting here listening to music & playing WoW & weeping?
(Damn, Rob cut me off.)
