A Year in Retrospect

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I've been quite active today. Thinking a lot. Yeah, mostly about myself. I love Diana Paxson's books, especially her more Pagan ones, & one of my favorites is White Raven. It's the story of Tristan & Isolde told from the perspective of Isolde's handmaiden, Branwen. A lot of this past year has been spent reflecting on what's truly important to me. I've spent a lot of my past being, like Branwen, a mother hen to many, many people. It's grown waaaaay out of proportion from 'Mother Hen' to 'Massive Control Freak'. Like Branwen, I have come to realize that I have to let people leave the nest. Both people in 'real life', people like Jody & people I work with. I cannot prevent mistakes from happening somewhere sometime. People have to live their lives and I have to live mine. I made a very big decision inside myself to let go of work. I chose time over money, and while it's only been the past couple of weeks that I've had more time than money, and I cannot believe what a difference it has made. I like time far more than I like money, and that's the honest fucking truth. I bought myself a wristwatch with skulls on it as a reminder. I don't care if the thing starts running backwards or stops or the hands fall off like the rest of my watches - when I go to work, I put my skully watch on & think about what's really important.

I am also not drunk right now, and I love y'all. And thank you all so much for being yourselves, and for being there for one another and for being there for me.

I know I'm going to be taking a drumming class in January.