The Wind & Health Crap
Mar. 16th, 2008 10:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
perzephone
Anymore I hate the wind. I used to like to go run the dogs in it. Used to just like to go running in the wind. It didn't matter if it was the hot August winds or the bitterly cold winter winds - I just wanted to be out in it. Now I want to hide from it. I don't like it, it makes me nervous and anxious. I always feel like something out there is looking for me. I don't want it to find me, but there's no sufficient hiding place. It comes down the chimney and under the doors.
This morning I woke up with the worst headache I've had in a long time. I was afraid to eat, didn't want any coffee. It's been so long since I've had a bad bordering-on-migraine headache that I honestly didn't know what the Hel to do about it. I just sort of wandered the house holding my head. Part of it was a medication hangover - been off my bp meds for a week & got them refilled last night, I took them before I went to bed. Part of it was the wind. It's been blowing since last night. It was nice yesterday afternoon but today it's been cold and windy.
My Elavil has basically stopped working - I've built up a tolerance. I'm taking a vacation from my friendly little green pills. The last time I took a vacation from Elavil, I had paranoid delusions about rotting bodies in my bathroom ceiling crawlspace. At least I knew what caused the delusions and that they were just delusions. The next month or so should be entertaining to say the least. Went to the eye doctor yesterday, too - just a little visual degradation, nothing too serious. I've been staring into a computer monitor about 12 - 16 hours a day for the past month. My eyes have been bugging me - burning, itching, watering, blurry. I had to start wearing my old glasses more regularly & finally I said fuck it & made an appointment for new ones. I am sooooo glad I have the ultra-thin lens option now. I wish I'd had it when I was say, 12. Now I'm even able to get glasses w/no bottom frame - they look good, sort of just blend into my face. Got my eyes dilated, which lasts about 8 hours. Everything had haloes. Rob, the cars on the road, the buildings. At least it was partly overcast yesterday afternoon. Having dilated pupils all night last night was probably a contributing factor to my headache this morning, too - I could feel all the muscles in my eyes twitching and contracting and jumping behind my eyeballs.
The next stage in my 'mystery malaise' is Hep C. It's the one disease that makes me kind of nervous. Me and my liver are not on the best of terms - I've abused it a lot over the years. Rob's getting tested for all the hepatitis viruses & HIV/AIDS because of the huge Endoscopic Surgical Center fiasco... He had a colonoscopy in 2002 - 2 years outside the class action lawsuit dates, but close enough to make him & the doctor decide it was a good idea. I probably don't have Hep C - I got vaccinated for A/B & tested for all the Heps before we went to Louisiana & I haven't engaged in any high-risk behaviour since then. Except the occasional drinking binge.
Tonight I saw Howl's Moving Castle all the way through for the first time. It was beautiful. We rented Hitman last night - I give it two 'meh's. It was a two-meh movie. Billy Zane would've made a way better hitman.
Two more days of work at the Excalibur and I'm free. My indentured servitude to the hospitality industry is finally coming to an end. I am completely terrified.
This morning I woke up with the worst headache I've had in a long time. I was afraid to eat, didn't want any coffee. It's been so long since I've had a bad bordering-on-migraine headache that I honestly didn't know what the Hel to do about it. I just sort of wandered the house holding my head. Part of it was a medication hangover - been off my bp meds for a week & got them refilled last night, I took them before I went to bed. Part of it was the wind. It's been blowing since last night. It was nice yesterday afternoon but today it's been cold and windy.
My Elavil has basically stopped working - I've built up a tolerance. I'm taking a vacation from my friendly little green pills. The last time I took a vacation from Elavil, I had paranoid delusions about rotting bodies in my bathroom ceiling crawlspace. At least I knew what caused the delusions and that they were just delusions. The next month or so should be entertaining to say the least. Went to the eye doctor yesterday, too - just a little visual degradation, nothing too serious. I've been staring into a computer monitor about 12 - 16 hours a day for the past month. My eyes have been bugging me - burning, itching, watering, blurry. I had to start wearing my old glasses more regularly & finally I said fuck it & made an appointment for new ones. I am sooooo glad I have the ultra-thin lens option now. I wish I'd had it when I was say, 12. Now I'm even able to get glasses w/no bottom frame - they look good, sort of just blend into my face. Got my eyes dilated, which lasts about 8 hours. Everything had haloes. Rob, the cars on the road, the buildings. At least it was partly overcast yesterday afternoon. Having dilated pupils all night last night was probably a contributing factor to my headache this morning, too - I could feel all the muscles in my eyes twitching and contracting and jumping behind my eyeballs.
The next stage in my 'mystery malaise' is Hep C. It's the one disease that makes me kind of nervous. Me and my liver are not on the best of terms - I've abused it a lot over the years. Rob's getting tested for all the hepatitis viruses & HIV/AIDS because of the huge Endoscopic Surgical Center fiasco... He had a colonoscopy in 2002 - 2 years outside the class action lawsuit dates, but close enough to make him & the doctor decide it was a good idea. I probably don't have Hep C - I got vaccinated for A/B & tested for all the Heps before we went to Louisiana & I haven't engaged in any high-risk behaviour since then. Except the occasional drinking binge.
Tonight I saw Howl's Moving Castle all the way through for the first time. It was beautiful. We rented Hitman last night - I give it two 'meh's. It was a two-meh movie. Billy Zane would've made a way better hitman.
Two more days of work at the Excalibur and I'm free. My indentured servitude to the hospitality industry is finally coming to an end. I am completely terrified.
