Just Thoughts

[perzephone]

I cooked food over an open flame last night, whee! The great challenge was in getting the charcoal to light & stay lit. Kingsford Charcoal is not so great.

I'm thinking of starting a second journal this summer - one herb or one Tarot card per day. Or maybe one herb and one card per day.

My insomnia is in full swing - not sleepy, waking up, not dreaming. At least if I only get three hours of sleep a night I don't wake up in the middle. I'm screwed if I get 5 hours though because I'll wake up at least twice. No paranoid delusions this time around at least. I feel all muzzy & my stomach's upset today. Blagh.

Josh called me last night. I'm so changing my phone number when I quit the Excalibur.

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[greenforest-elf.livejournal.com]

*hugs and rocks u to sleep*

insomnia sucks the big one - ppl who dont have it have no frigging idea how it can rule our lives.

I refuse to take sleeping pills after seeing my dad go down that road - Id rather battle my daemons my way than the chemical way!!!

To Sleep, Perchance to Dream

[perzephone.livejournal.com]

Ah yes, sweet insomnia. If I felt better, I could probably get a lot more accomlished, lol. A lot of people w/chronic pain, depression, PTSD, etc. have trouble sleeping - and it always makes things worse.

I wish I could be drug-free when it comes to sleep. I think it would be better if I just had trouble falling asleep. Stuff like the Ambien & Lunesta knock me out, but the sleep they bring wears off within hours so I'm wide awake mentally but staggering around drunkenly because when those pills say you need 8 hours to dedicate to sleep, they mean it. Rozerem, that new one w/the weird 'Your dreams miss you' commercials made me so dizzy & nauseous I couldn't even consider using it longer than the 3 days I tried it.

I rely heavily on Elavil. It's 'just' an anti-depressant, though. I've been off it 2 weeks - just 2 more weeks to go & I can probably start taking it again & getting the benefits from it again.

If it was a matter of missing sleep a couple of times a week, I could brush it aside. I miss out on a lot of healing sleep - my joints are always swollen & stiff, my feet swell, I start having ulcer flare-ups and acid reflux and the lack of dreaming leaves me slightly psychotic after a month or so. I start getting anxious, jumpy and I see far more than what I normally see & have a harder time telling the difference between the household ghosts & goms and the dreamless delusions.