Crappity Crap Crap

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My back still aches in my left kidney area. Yesterday, it was sort of a band across both kidneys, roping my poor twisted spine in with them, but today, it's dull burny ache centered over the left kidney. I am starting to worry about the possibilities of having a kidney infection. Of course, this crap had to happen over a holiday weekend, so I am loathe to go to a Quick-Care and sit around all day waiting for a doctor to take a urine sample & give me antibiotics. I'm going to call the urologist on Monday to let her know I passed a stone fragment, and let her know about the back pain - maybe she can call in an antibiotic.

That's the thing about developing scoliosis. My lower back always hurts. Always. I don't go any days at all without some form of pain down there, be it from a mild soreness to 'OMFG just cut me in half from the waist down!' Everything makes it worse, too - the period, having to poop, cold weather, humid weather, sitting all day at work, moving all day at work, half-sitting half-moving all day at work, walking, not walking, stretching, not stretching... so when there's something actually wrong with another body part down there, I can't tell if it's a new problem or just my back. If it was localized to that one portion of my spine, that would be one thing, but it radiates to my groin, across my sides, into my ass muscles, my tailbone, and sometimes, when it's really, really bad, if I poke at my back (or someone else pokes at my back - I like doggy-style, but the width of Rob's hands mean that sometimes his thumbs hit exactly the wrong place on either side of my spine), or bump into something with my back, it will make me vomit or take my legs completely out from under me.

Another complicating factor is that I've started taking 5mg of Lexapro to see if it'll help with the problems I'm having at work. One of the side-effects of Lexapro is lower back pain. I can't tell if it's working yet. I take it at night, but right around 2pm yesterday I felt like someone slipped me a mickey. Went & took a nap, and when I got up it seemed like it took me a long time to get back into my body. Not astrally, but as if the sleep chemicals were still floating around in my system for a few hours. Except for my back, which was wide-awake & all present. Yesterday was a very bad back day.

What that all means is that even if there was something horribly wrong with my kidneys, I wouldn't be able to isolate it as a kidney infection or kidney spasms. When I passed the stone piece the other night, I thought it was just back spasms - I even joked, "Gee, maybe I'm finally passing a stone! Ha ha!", and went and stood under the hottest water imaginable just so it would make me go numb. It wasn't until I felt the release of the back spasm, accompanied by a burning sensation in the front region of my pelvis & a need to pee that it hit me that, yeah, I was actually doing something productive instead of just writhing in useless back pain.