Radio Silence
Jan. 15th, 2010 08:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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I've just been walking around in this sort of funk over the past few weeks. I think too much has happened in too short of a time frame, and I'm still kind of reeling from the impact.
- Passed a kidney stone fragment
- Hit with accompanying kidney infection
- Dog swallows needle
- Dog passes needle unharmed
- Shootout downtown narrowly missed by virtue of dog-needle episode
- Lockdown next day at work
- Friend may die immediately
- Friend may die Soon™ but not as Soon™ as expected
- Turned 36
- Husband turned 40
I've started taking 10mg of Lexapro a day... I don't know if it's helping, honestly, but I've been sleeping better, so fuck it. I also don't know if it's contributing to my malaise or if I'd be a train wreck right now without it. I know one thing, though - mental health is expensive. $50 a bottle, even with my insurance. No wonder there are so many crazy people wandering around - they can't afford the fucking meds.
I've been doing a lot of standing around staring mindlessly into blank space. It makes my co-workers nervous. I feel like I've been hit with narcolepsy, too - I am fantastic at taking unexpected, unplanned naps. The other night, I napped on the couch for two hours - and then went to bed and slept for another eight. The experts say you can't catch up on lost sleep, but I seem to be finding sleep all over the place. Hell, I fell asleep in the copy room today while escorting the Xerox tech to fix one of the machines. I was sitting there w/my pocket Tetris game, chatting w/the copy clerk, listening to the rhythmic thump of the working machine, and when the clerk left w/some paperwork, I dozed off (I'm probably one of the few people who can fall soundly asleep in an MRI machine - and chances are, I could probably fall asleep in a clothes dryer).
I tried to get plane tickets and make plans to see Ann this weekend. That didn't go so well. I will call her, though.
- Passed a kidney stone fragment
- Hit with accompanying kidney infection
- Dog swallows needle
- Dog passes needle unharmed
- Shootout downtown narrowly missed by virtue of dog-needle episode
- Lockdown next day at work
- Friend may die immediately
- Friend may die Soon™ but not as Soon™ as expected
- Turned 36
- Husband turned 40
I've started taking 10mg of Lexapro a day... I don't know if it's helping, honestly, but I've been sleeping better, so fuck it. I also don't know if it's contributing to my malaise or if I'd be a train wreck right now without it. I know one thing, though - mental health is expensive. $50 a bottle, even with my insurance. No wonder there are so many crazy people wandering around - they can't afford the fucking meds.
I've been doing a lot of standing around staring mindlessly into blank space. It makes my co-workers nervous. I feel like I've been hit with narcolepsy, too - I am fantastic at taking unexpected, unplanned naps. The other night, I napped on the couch for two hours - and then went to bed and slept for another eight. The experts say you can't catch up on lost sleep, but I seem to be finding sleep all over the place. Hell, I fell asleep in the copy room today while escorting the Xerox tech to fix one of the machines. I was sitting there w/my pocket Tetris game, chatting w/the copy clerk, listening to the rhythmic thump of the working machine, and when the clerk left w/some paperwork, I dozed off (I'm probably one of the few people who can fall soundly asleep in an MRI machine - and chances are, I could probably fall asleep in a clothes dryer).
I tried to get plane tickets and make plans to see Ann this weekend. That didn't go so well. I will call her, though.
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Date: 2010-01-16 07:00 am (UTC)I also understand about the meds. I actually left my job so I could make that little less to get on a supported program. My meds was over $200 a month (Anxiety. Anti-depressant, and a sleep aid) I final found a drug that works great for most of my issues when they flare... It only costs $195 for 3 months... which is all I'm allowed to take but it's it is not needed as much to build up in my system I can make the 3 months stretch to 5-7 months (depending on what's going on. No including the co-pays that have to be done with it.