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[perzephone]

I want all my profile pics back, dammit.

Aside from that, Rob & I talked in the car about the whole me not getting the monogamy memo. So it seems I am stuck in a closed marriage. I feel as though he's broken a geas. I may not have acted on my freedom much, but the thought that it was there was comforting. I don't like imagining a lifetime of sex with just one person. It's so... boring. How can people do it, I mean, honestly? Especially with someone who is a one-trick-pony for the most part?

Ah well. I dreamed of seals last night - they've been absent since my last contact with them. I've also been thinking of the whole writing thing. I can write porn, I do give myself that much credit. However, my porn is much like the porno flicks I despise so much. Harsh lighting, stilted dialogue, bad acting, little or no plot and only one or two words for genitalia.

So I've been thinking about a story - it'd be fantasy porn, but based in modern-day America. A story about selkies and humans, with plenty of freaky circus sex thrown in.

I just haven't been reading much sci-fi/fantasy over the past five or six years, so I don't know if the market is glutted with shapeshifting nymphos or not.

I cannot wait for school to end. I need to hole up in a library for awhile.

Comments

[moonvoice.livejournal.com]

To be honest, to me, someone in a partnership going 'no, it's monogamy now,' is about as fundamentally damaging as a person in a straight relationship going 'honey, I'm gay now, but you can just deal with that right?'

It is a damaging betrayal, and I've flat out told Glen that even though I love him, if he decides it's monogamy all the way, we're done. Same if he was gay. I just can't have a relationship in that situation!

The fact that Rob didn't even tell you this, and just assumed you'd go along with it, is the suckiest thing of all. It suggests he's never taken it seriously. :/

Green Eyes

[perzephone.livejournal.com]

He's jealous of other men. He's always been jealous, but since I've been in a sexual frenzy lately, he is now threatened by the possibility that I may actually act on my once-perceived freedom.

Why do people get so freaking attached to me?

/headdesk