My Happiness
Aug. 28th, 2003 08:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
perzephone
Why is everyone (well, ok, 2 people) so concerned about my current happiness? If no one's noticed, I've never been a happy person. I wasn't a happy kid, a happy teenager, and I'm not a happy adult. Deal with it. I don't smile, I rarely laugh, and when I do it's because something strikes me funny, not because I'm happy. I can be content - I'm pretty darn content right now, as a matter of fact. Contentedness is all I've ever wanted.
And why should it matter to anyone else whether I am happy or not? My happiness or unhappiness shouldn't cause anyone else distress. I don't get distressed when other people are unhappy. It doesn't ruin my life, so why should anyone care that I am unhappy? Maybe I like being unhappy. Did you ever think of that, huh? Well, did ya, punk?
It's my whole outlook on life - I've never expected to be happy, so therefore, when I'm not happy, it doesn't bother me, because I never expected it in the first place. Actually, when I get happy it kinda freaks me out a little. I don't know if I like being happy. I woke up on the right side of the bed this morning & haven't felt normal all day.
And why should it matter to anyone else whether I am happy or not? My happiness or unhappiness shouldn't cause anyone else distress. I don't get distressed when other people are unhappy. It doesn't ruin my life, so why should anyone care that I am unhappy? Maybe I like being unhappy. Did you ever think of that, huh? Well, did ya, punk?
It's my whole outlook on life - I've never expected to be happy, so therefore, when I'm not happy, it doesn't bother me, because I never expected it in the first place. Actually, when I get happy it kinda freaks me out a little. I don't know if I like being happy. I woke up on the right side of the bed this morning & haven't felt normal all day.
