Revelations...
Jun. 20th, 2005 10:46 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
perzephone
Rob actually told me, maybe an hour or so ago, that I don't get the kind of support I deserve from anyone in my life, including him.
Wow. I'm kind of floored. Especially because I'm not looking for support.
I've been thinking about going to a counselor of some sort to see if they could tell me if I'm actually depressed or if I'm just burned out. Rob hates the idea of psychiatrists, psychologists & mood altering substances, but he'll take me if I really want to go. I don't even know what I'm looking for in that respect, so I posted a q/a on Dr. Grohol's PsychCenter. Maybe someone will actually give me an answer this time. I guess not many people have experience w/Paxil... at least not on Dr. Grohol's.
I'm tempted to rejoin tribe to see if there are any depression rooms on there, but I don't want to get sucked into it. Instead, since I've answered all of OkCupid's 1700 personality match questions, I've been getting sucked into voting on other people's submissions.
There is this guy who continually IM's me, wanting me to cast a spell on him to feminize him. A couple of days ago he wanted me to lead him through some sort of fantasy involving dressing him up like a woman & then sacrificing him to my Gods. By tonight, I'm about ready to rip his head off & let his blood run in rivers down the Luxor's pyramid... He drives me nuts - always uses different s/n's, so it's pointless to fill up my blocked IM's w/his s/n's. I keep telling him that 1) I am not domme. 2) I don't cast spells anymore. 3) He can cast a spell on himself & obtain results. 4) Leave me the fuck alone.
Wow. I'm kind of floored. Especially because I'm not looking for support.
I've been thinking about going to a counselor of some sort to see if they could tell me if I'm actually depressed or if I'm just burned out. Rob hates the idea of psychiatrists, psychologists & mood altering substances, but he'll take me if I really want to go. I don't even know what I'm looking for in that respect, so I posted a q/a on Dr. Grohol's PsychCenter. Maybe someone will actually give me an answer this time. I guess not many people have experience w/Paxil... at least not on Dr. Grohol's.
I'm tempted to rejoin tribe to see if there are any depression rooms on there, but I don't want to get sucked into it. Instead, since I've answered all of OkCupid's 1700 personality match questions, I've been getting sucked into voting on other people's submissions.
There is this guy who continually IM's me, wanting me to cast a spell on him to feminize him. A couple of days ago he wanted me to lead him through some sort of fantasy involving dressing him up like a woman & then sacrificing him to my Gods. By tonight, I'm about ready to rip his head off & let his blood run in rivers down the Luxor's pyramid... He drives me nuts - always uses different s/n's, so it's pointless to fill up my blocked IM's w/his s/n's. I keep telling him that 1) I am not domme. 2) I don't cast spells anymore. 3) He can cast a spell on himself & obtain results. 4) Leave me the fuck alone.
