My First Therapy Session
Jun. 28th, 2005 09:28 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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Ok, first off, all the first impressions were pretty much correct - Tammi is blonde & chipper, w/her hyphenated last name & all.
She put me off at first - starts talking about the correlation between diet & moods, and I am the anti-dieter... she told me to start watching my sugar & caffeine intake at work, which I already have been, but then she started in on carbohydrates & exercise. "Just 10 minutes of exercise a day can improve your emotional state!" Even the skinny woman inside me that I ate for breakfast started growling at that one. I felt like, "Just because a fat woman walks into your office & tells you she's feeling blue doesn't mean she sits around on the couch eating bon-bons all day." I eat fairly balanced, I just don't move unless I'm walking paperwork back & forth through the hotel.
Anyway, she probably sensed the evil eye being thrown her way, because she moved on. She asked me about my goals & I told her I'd like to be more motivated, I'd like to be able to do more than just get up & go to work, I'd like to be able to pick up a pen or a brush & do something creative again, I'd like to be able to pick up the flute or guitar or saxophone & play again... Like to be able to get over my generalized hatred of higher education & make some small step towards becoming a mortician. Something, anything... I'd like to have some depth of emotion again, like to be able to walk through a crowd or have people sit next to me without wanting to coil & hissss. She said my goals were realistic and should be easy to reach.
We talked about journaling. I'm supposed to set my mood up on a scale of 0 - 20, 0 being n'zambi & 20 being about to die of happy hysteria or something. I don't even have a ground state, though - is neutral a 10? How neutral do I have to be to hit 10? I'm also supposed to write for 10 minutes a day in a free-thought sort of way, like this. I think that's going to be the hardest part, other than keeping track of what I eat/drink when I eat/drink. Today I'm down to only having to write 3 more minutes, but there are so many days that go by when I can't write anything. I guess I'll start having to write essays on book chapters or something... science reports, quips about the news. She also told me to put in three 'quickies':
1) I think:
2) I feel:
3) I need:
At least, I think that's what she said.
Times up.
She put me off at first - starts talking about the correlation between diet & moods, and I am the anti-dieter... she told me to start watching my sugar & caffeine intake at work, which I already have been, but then she started in on carbohydrates & exercise. "Just 10 minutes of exercise a day can improve your emotional state!" Even the skinny woman inside me that I ate for breakfast started growling at that one. I felt like, "Just because a fat woman walks into your office & tells you she's feeling blue doesn't mean she sits around on the couch eating bon-bons all day." I eat fairly balanced, I just don't move unless I'm walking paperwork back & forth through the hotel.
Anyway, she probably sensed the evil eye being thrown her way, because she moved on. She asked me about my goals & I told her I'd like to be more motivated, I'd like to be able to do more than just get up & go to work, I'd like to be able to pick up a pen or a brush & do something creative again, I'd like to be able to pick up the flute or guitar or saxophone & play again... Like to be able to get over my generalized hatred of higher education & make some small step towards becoming a mortician. Something, anything... I'd like to have some depth of emotion again, like to be able to walk through a crowd or have people sit next to me without wanting to coil & hissss. She said my goals were realistic and should be easy to reach.
We talked about journaling. I'm supposed to set my mood up on a scale of 0 - 20, 0 being n'zambi & 20 being about to die of happy hysteria or something. I don't even have a ground state, though - is neutral a 10? How neutral do I have to be to hit 10? I'm also supposed to write for 10 minutes a day in a free-thought sort of way, like this. I think that's going to be the hardest part, other than keeping track of what I eat/drink when I eat/drink. Today I'm down to only having to write 3 more minutes, but there are so many days that go by when I can't write anything. I guess I'll start having to write essays on book chapters or something... science reports, quips about the news. She also told me to put in three 'quickies':
1) I think:
2) I feel:
3) I need:
At least, I think that's what she said.
Times up.
