Weird Dream

Either Monday or Tuesday I had a dream... it was sort of like short vignettes of myself as different women, in different clothing & scenarios, all with their throats slit. In the last one, I cut my own throat - which was odd, too, because instead of going from ear to ear, I went from chin to collarbone in a vertical line, & then reached in the wound to scrabble around w/my fingers. Eww. In all of them, I had a sensation, a maddening feeling like something was stuck in my throat, and in the last one, where I had cut my own throat, it didn't remedy the problem - instead it was compounded by my own blood choking me. That & I think I pulled or tugged on something that was supposed to be where it was at. I was gesturing frantically at the people around me with my other hand, all who just stared w/wide horrified eyes - but not a soul offered any assistance beyond backing away.

I've already had my thyroid checked out, so I know it's not some weird warning sign that something's wrong there. On my last visit to my gp, she did say that it looked almost like I had scarring in my windpipe... I was like, "Gee, that's funny" while all the time I was thinking to myself that maybe deep-throating well hung men isn't such a hot idea... But I digress. All I can really think is that I was having some hellacious sinus drainage & was actually choking, but instead of just waking up snorking and hacking, I was dreaming about it. Just weird. There are all the symbolic, allegorical things there, too - things that 'stick in my craw', so to speak. Things people might be afraid to hear me say. Constantly struggling to express myself and falling mutely aside. Who freakin' knows?

Rob had a small, angry scorpion in his room last night. Great.

Got me some Delta blues sitting here on my desk, fresh from the mail. Robert Johnson - The Complete Recordings. Been down to the crossroads lately?